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Thursday, October 12, 2000

I already expected, even before i took the exam that i wouldnt do well.I managed to answer some questions but im not satisfied with my performance.

And who do you think im suppose to blame?

I knew, even before the start of the examination week that i will have a hard time in this subject because i already missed alot of lessons and i dont have the required photocopies.

I'm just too good for my own self, procastinator and assuming that i always end up compromising even my grades.

I should have studied well knowing that the last two subjects are quite hard compared to the others and the last two subjects are the ones where im always absent or if not, asleep.

But what did i do?

Nothing!

I slept during the weekend when im suppose to be studying.

I didnt attend the last two meeting for my Philosophy class and I didnt show up in my math class for the whole week even if i knew so well that the last week is the most important of all because instructors will be giving their pointers and reviews.

I was just to stubborn to report in class, always managing to find excuses even if i know too well that i should go there no matter what.

This semester has been a "low" for me.Though i got high scores and grades for the past midterm exams, and though I am aware that I already got high grades in my subjects, am not satisfied with my performance and i am not completely and totally and infact not at all pleased with myself.

I had become a sluggard.Preferring to sleep and eat than go to school.Preferring to watch movies when im suppose to be studying.

Im not like this before.I dont know whats happening but i know there is something wrong with me."WRONG" as in wrong in quotation marks,bold letters caps lock and underlined!And this something has to change if i want to finish my course.This something has to be eradicated before it finally swallows me whole and send me direct to hell. i dont want to wake up and find my self without anything.I am already far from my dream, but im a step closer to the alternative that i chose.

If i continue being like this, what will happen to me?I passed my projects late already and i still havent complied with my other requirements yet, even though i have all the damned time in the world.

I will be the one to suffer and i surely know that. I know and i knew.i always do.I always seemed to forget that i am resolve to do something and instead do the things that should'nt be. I always forget to cross the bridge no matter how many times ive been there.Deadlines for me has become deader and deadier and deadiest (if only this words really exist)and has finally reached the deadliest stage that it nearly explode and shattered my dream of surviving this semester.

I messed everything.i messed my objective when i chose to submit myself to my wants rather than my needs.I prioritized wrong things and i ruined my every chances in getting into that "list"..

how can i be there when i wont attend my classes?Even if i got high grades in otehr subjects my math will always be the "hindrance", and im not yet sure if i could manage to pull my philosophy grade.Never mind my other subjects, those two are the only ones where i always find myself tired.

I dont know what will happen.I dread seeing my grades.I just hope time will stop and return to the week after the midterm where everything started.Where i got too confident with my grades and the easiness of the exams.

But life doesnt go that way. It never will.

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