2006 Flashback

The year twenty-o-six is just about to end. A few days from now, another year will again unfold. What will happen in the year(s) to ocme is still to be seen and experienced, the prospect of facing another year is both exciting and scary because it holds things that might make or break your existence. However, 2007 is still a few blocks away, so i guess its would be alright to look back to 2006.

This year has been very exciting, enjoying and this has been a year of heartbreaks, trials,pains, triumphs,and learning.

January: The first month of 2006 has been challenging for me. I celebrated my birthday away from my family, the first time actually. I experienced a lot of depressing moments during this time. However, i regained a friendship that i thought would never be fix again.

February: Nothing special really. It was my grandma's bday and we celebrated it. the first time that the whole family was together. Perhaps thats the only thing i remembered for this month.

March: Whew. Some of my high school classmates decided to transfer school and i saddened knowing that i would be alone again. I finished the semester with top grades, and i was so proud because for the first time i could prove to my family that i can.

April: The first month of the summer break. I could sum up this month in three words. BORING, BORING,BORiNG!…

May: I was saddened after smile texted me that she will be transferring to another school. She was the only friend i have here in dumaguete and the only one really close to me. I was so sad and i lost all the desire to return. Nevertheless, i enrolled and discovered that i have new boardmates and be friended them.

June: I had a good start. I met new friends, i met new people and learned from them. But i felt so alone and distant because i can't really be close to them the way smile and me are close to each other. I promised myself that i will never visit the boulevard again nor the Silliman BEach, because of the memories that we had there. I was so homesick that i didnt know what to do with my life. But i still made sure that my classes werenot affected by the chanmges in my life. For the nth time in my life i cried again for a friend i lost.

July: I made a deciscion that changed my life totally. I decided to audition for the school paper, i undergone the written exam and the interview and managed to pass. I guess this is the most memorable part of 2006, because here i reached my dream of being a student journalist.

August: IPR, Seminars, article deadlines, exams. Pressure, depression and so on. I was s o down and weary and started thinking fo quitting teh schoolpaper. If not for my boardmates who kept on encouraging me to go on, who looks upto me as if im some celebrity i guess i wouldn't go this far. Everytime i see their smiles and pride each time they read the schoolpaper with my articles in it, it encourages me to go on.

September: The most exciting part of my schoolpaper life. I was harrased, shouted at and reprimanded. I won't elaborate the details because they are confidential matters but it made me realize how hard a journalist's life could be. It made me realize that life in the student publication is not all about prestige, and fame. It also made me realize that being in teh schoolpaper does not only require the talent in writing but it needs a lot fo courage and nerves of steel. Sissies have no place in a paper likeours.=)

October: well, the end of the semester. I regretted a lot because even if my grades were more than satisfacoty i know i could have gotten grades higher than the ones i have is only i were a bit more diligent in attending my classes. I missed alot of opportunities and almost jeopardize my future.

A month of triumph and tragedy.

During this month, i broke my heart for the second time around. It's quiet stupid really. Thinking that i cried over the same person twice already. He broke my heart twice, i cried a dozen times, yet i still love him.Duh! Talk about stupidity. It made me think how crazy i had been for letting him go in excahnge of all my dreams,it made me ask myself if i did the right thing letting somebody go to reach my dreams. I know its selfish but i can't ruin my future, my dreams and my family's trust for one person only. The only arguement i have is that, if i don't let him go, i could jeopardize my future and i would hurt my family and ruin their trust. I know he'll never be mine now because i already let him go, but i aslso admit that i still felt the same.

This is also the month where i became an official member of the school paper. I was also chosen as the editors choice during the seminar among all other trainess.

November: A very tiring month. It's the 79th founder's week anniversary and it was really fun but very tiring.

December: The month of realization

This month opened with a tragedy. She wasn't really close to me and were not even friends, buit she made me realize of all the things ive wasted. She's Sara Mae Noay, Vice President of the Crime Prevention Council. If im not mistaken on the 3rd week of november i interviewed her about the Criminology passers for the October Licensure Examination for Criminology. She was funny and very accomodating.She introduced me to their president and was even laughing during the interview. I could never forget what she said during the interview. "Ready na jud ko motake of board exam." Then two weeks after she died.

What a loss. She was an honor student and a good one. I could never accept the fate she had. Did she knew she was dying? How did she feel?

Her death made me think of the times i have. I am a prcastinator and it made me think that i might not be able to do everything i have to do because of it. She made me realize how death could be so stealthy and surprising. She reminded me that death could come anytime to anybody, even to somebody as good as her.

I nearly died. In fact just last sunday,December 17. I almost drowned because of my folly. We had our Christmas party at Dumaguete Spring resort and i was so stupid and foolish to go swimming alone. Wellnot really alone since my companions were watching television at the bar beside the pool. I swam alone though.

It was really stupid since first of all, i am aware that the side of the pool were im standing is 7 feet deep and second im not a good swimmer. I know how to swim but not really good. I know how to swim but i panic if i could no longer touch the floor. I know if somebody would drown and i witness it, i would just probab ly be cheering the person because i would be of no help.

Ok, so i went swimming.I was planning of crossing the pool, took a breath and dived. However, after two strookes i lost oxygen and have to resurface. I sould have expected sit isnce during that time im having difficulty breathing even before i plunged at the water, but foolish that i am i still went swimming. I panicked when i realized that i was still in the middle of the pool and can't touch the floor. i called for help and tried my best to float. My companions saw me but they taught i was bluffing, it took a few minutes before they realized that i was drowning. I thought i'd die that moment. I was struggling to survive and for the many times i said i was ready to die any minute, the incident made me realize i still ant to live. Well it also made me think of something. I started to ask myself, will i reach 2007?Will i reach my 18th birthday? The thought of dying before i reach my birthday mademe shudder.I am not a superstitious person but what my friend told me scared me.Is it true that people nearing a momentous part fo their life like graduation,birthday,wedding and so on are always threatened of dying? And to think i still doesnt have a boyfirend!(ok, im just joking here!)…

2006, like the other years has been memorable to me. Whew! I survived 2006( or i hope i will) but will i survive 2007?

A not so happy christmas waiting

Shouldn't christmas be a time for families to be with each other?then is it that my parents wants us (my brother and me) to spend it again (as usual) with my lola?

its that i dont like it there..i grew up there and of course that place is important to me. However, ive been away from hope since MAy and im looking forward to spend this christmas with my family…but it seems that they dont want to be with me.

Its always like this.Why do i always have to spend it with my grandparents when i have my parents? I dont like it!

i know they qyarreled again that's why we would again spend christmas in a palce where i had grown to partially loath…

whew!that's the problem with being a child..you can't do anything!