How would a soldier continue the fight when he is already weary and tired?

How does a runner find the energy to continue running when he can't see the end in sight?

How would you reach your goal when you have lost sight of it?

H0w do you find the light when the whole world becomes dark?

So here I am. yeah posting my random thoughts and what-nots.

We will be having a meeting in a shortwhile and I'm just passing the time by.

Slept the whole afternoon and woke up just a few minutes ago. Woke up really reallyhungry so I went out and bought banana cue for myself.

Still waiting for the people to appear here in the office. Where in the world are they? huh...

Enough for now. Can't think of anything sensible to post here. So bye bye before this gets worse!

Your sun has set

Before it could even rise

You have yet to start the journey

You haven’t even seen the light

The stork has made a mistake

And now you will not even see the dawn break

A tiny thing yet to show beauty

No bigger than the hands that ended your journey

Nobody heard your cries

As you struggled to live

Your tiny form, now mangled and broken

You were flushed out of your cocoon

They sent you into oblivion

The angels cried when they took you away

To the sky they took you with their halos and wings

Now little angel, in heaven you will stay

You were a miracle

But they did not understand

You were a blessing

But they will simply not listen

They said you’re a curse

A punishment for their sins

You didn’t have the voice

To reason for yourself

So they sent you away

“To a better place,” the say

You were never given the choice

If you would rather stay

Now say goodbye little angel

Fly away with your tiny wings

Laugh at them who hurt you

They never did understand

That though you were made from sin

You were given as a gift from God

3 days. Gone.

Hole in my pocket? Could be.

Impulsive buyer? definitely.

 ♥ Save at least 10 pesos per day.This would mean giving up my "extra snacks" but I know that's it's high time that I learn the value of thriftiness. At the end of each month I will have P300 or more and by the end of the School year (if everything goes as planned) I will have P3, 000. Chuckx!

♥ Attend Classes. Really. This is somethingthat I should have been doing all along. This is my final year in college (hopefully) and there will be no more next times. I will have to do it right now or just jump off a bridge instead.

♥ If not in the office, NO INTERNET. Save the money instead!!

♥ Save Honoraria. I've been saying time and again that if I save my honoraria, by the end of the end I will have enough money to buy what I want--like a really sleek digicam perhaps?

♥ Don't Argue with teachers---even if they're wrong. yeah. This year I'll try to shut up so my instructors won't be annoyed at me. I'll finally behave. Promise!

♥ Comply deficiences and so on. Yeah, and pass assignments on time.

♥ Take the Civil Service Exams. It's for the future so don't act like a sluggard!

♥ Minimize blogging and other online charness. Yeah, so you could finally focus on the things that really matters.

I was supposedto post about this after I went back from my hometown but because my mind keeps on wandering to other things, I was not able to. Good thing I remembered it now though.

It happened when I went home last May 12 (or 13 or 14...can't remember really) for the fiesta. I was so tired and lightheaded after almost five hours of travelling that I was already imagining myself sleeping like the dead in my bed. Unfortunately for me, my 8 year-old cousin was at home when I arrived. She asked me relentlessly if I wanted to go to the plaze and probably play there. I told her that I would bring her there but we will just ride the ferris wheel instead.

I did not tell her when I would be bringer her exactly but she was so excited that as early as 5pm (the perya opens at dusk and the ferris at arund 7pm) she was already dressed and prepared. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I am still nauseated and my head is about to burst. So I just compromised and brought her instead.

Everything went fine at first then after 20 minutes, I feel like vomiting and my head is throbbing. At first I did not mind it and pretended that everything is fine. My cousin was enjoying her self and she was laughing and shouting excitedly the whole time. I don't have the heart to tell her that we have to get off the ferris wheel because the chicken that I ate for dinner is about to make a return journey.

After a few minutes (when I could no longer take it) I gently told her, "baba na tayo..." At first I thought she did not hear me so I waited for another few minutes and told her again. "Lheanne, baba na tayo. Masakit na ang ulo ko..." Again she just kept on laughing and shouting like she did not hear me at all.

The next time I told her, almost pleading, she just looked at me and started singing. She kept it on for another 15 minutes that I had to signal my Auntie that we had to get off immideately. I was already pale and weak but my cousin was still laughing and singing, almost clinging to the seat of the ferris wheel and doesn't want to get off.

Imagine that! That child is like a little terrorist to me, torturing me at every possible chance. But I love her all the same.

This is what happens if you've enjoyed exploring blog sites so much. I could no longerdecide which to prioritize.

Maybe I'll try to maintain both. ughh!

Besides this blog has more site traffic than my other blog. Perhaps its the URL. I was so ignorant when I first made this blog that I used the first to to come into my mind as a URL.

Anyway, I do wish I could have a unified blog account.=)

Dear Santa,

            I know its still March and its way tooooo early to ask for a Christmas gift but I do believe in the saying that, “Christmas is in our hearts…” and because I do, I would like to ask for an early Christmas present from you.

            I wanted to ask for a laptop initially but then I saw that new PS3 advertised on TV and I decided to ask for that instead. You know, its summer again and summer is just way too boring without anything to entertain you. With this gadget I could download games and kiss boredom goodbye! If I'm not mistaken, with the PS3, you can also connect to the internet and play your games online. I especially wanted to play that Untold Legends: Dark Kingdom. It’s actually a role playing game and I do sure love role playing games.

            Please Santa, I would really want to have that PS3 with all its accessories and all its games and everything it can offer. Please, please, please… I promise I’ll be really really good this year…=)

 always...

Aian

A teardrop,

A sigh of regret,

A simple goodbye

The delicate chain has been broken,

Now I have to let you go.

I am burying your memory,

With the past that we shared

I dug so deep so it wouldn’t be unearthed

And break my heart again.

When love is lost,

It can always be recovered.

But when friendship is gone,

It is gone forever.

The special bond that we used to share

Has long been forgotten,

Gone were the days when we used to care for each other

Our past is now a history,

frozen in tiny photographs.

No more sounds of laughter,

No more traces of tears.

All that remained of our friendship is a tiny canvass,

A bitter reminder of what used to be.

Our smiling faces plastered in tiny snapshots,

Our laughters, echoes of yesterday

Yesterday seemed so long ago,

The shattering of the chains seemed distant and dreamlike,

Only the resounding pain makes it real.

My heart shattered in every single blow,

My teardrops fell as our special bond slowly let go,

I couldn’t stop you if you wanted so much to go,

I only wished that you had been gentle

When you finally closed that door

Now, I could only bade you goodbye

As my broken spirit slowly heals.